Is Enough, Enough?

Scripture 1 Kings 19:4 But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a broom tree. And he prayed that he might die, and said, “It is enough! Now, LORD, take my life, for I am no better than my fathers!”

Observation: Boy does this sound like so many days in my past. I couldn’t take anymore and all that I wanted was out of here and this is before I knew my Savior. But even after I was saved I had these same moments just wanting to be out of here and not having to go through another day of this misery, unfortunately I wanted to be out of here more than I wanted to be in Heaven. The times I couldn’t stand to be here and wanted to die was when my situation seemed bigger than my God, which in reality could never happen, but that’s how I felt.

Application: I need to realize I’m only here because God desires it so. He could have taken my life so many other times, heck He didn’t have to take it I wanted to freely give it and he wouldn’t allow it. So I’m here for a purpose and that purpose is God’s. I have a testimony now that can be used, a willingness to be used by God and knowledge that He has given me that can be used to help others. I’m not mine, but my Lord’s, I’m a servant and a servant serves and that is what I need to be doing until God calls me home in service with Him.

Prayer: My Lord thank you for saving me for a time like this. May my only fear be that I would let you down. Give me the strength, courage and wisdom I will need to complete the task you have me here for and that it will bring joy to you. I do love you and I know you know, may my life now show it.